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Love/Hate

::I love that so many old friends come visit Monroe (Rachel & Andrew, Josh & Lacey, Matt & Holly – and that’s just last week!)::
::I hate that I’ll be leaving soon and I’ll have to be the visitor instead of the visitee::

::I love that I’m going to see Stephen this weekend::
::I hate that I have to make it 3 more days::

::I love that I have so many great things going on in my life right now::
::I hate that starting something new means leaving so many things behind::

::I love my job::
::I hate that I’ve got so many changes coming to my job next week::

::I love being busy::
::I hate being tired all the time::

::I love my life!::

Because You've Been Dying To Know

Looking Up

Well, I'm not quite as weepy as I was last week and things are going well. I'm trying to maintain my normal life as I plan the wedding. This week looks like it will be quite busy, so I probably won't have a lot of wedding-planning time, but that's okay - things can be on hold for a brief while.
Life at work is keeping me very occupied. I got offered that big promotion I've been working toward...and I basically had to turn it down because I didn't feel right about accepting it, then coming back in 4 months and telling them I'm moving to California. That was not easy to do, but it's clearly the right thing to do and it's obviously worth it. So, I'm still not quite sure what things will be like in the office in the coming months, but for now, it's quite interesting.
Thursday is the big day for my Thailand presentation to the Rotary Club. I'm not fretting over it. I don't have time for fretting. I wish I was more excited about presenting, but I'm just not feeling it. Maybe I can conjure up some excitement between now and Thursday.
For now, all my excitement is focused on the 11-day count down to my next trip to California. Yeah, I'm pretty much living for that right now.

You Know That Episode of Seinfield...

How many conversations have I begun with a Seinfeld reference? Too many to count.
But anyway: you know that one where Jerry starts showing his emotions and he starts crying and confessing love and all that? He just can't help himself.
That's me now. I've definitely gone through times in my life when I was a cryer, but in the past few years, I've been a non-cryer. I don't know what's wrong with me. I guess finally falling in love has done weird things to my emotions. I think I've cried more in the last month than I have in 3 or 4 years. Seriously: I'm very sensitive.
I don't like to cry, which makes it even worse, because then I get frustrated with myself for crying and it makes me cry more.
Example:
Sunday, as I was sitting in church, Sophie came and snuggled up next to me and yada, yada, yada...I started crying because I was thinking about moving to California and not being around my nieces & nephews any more. Of course moving to California is both happy and sad for me, because starting this new chapter in my life means leaving a lot of wonderful things behind. The trade off is clearly worth it, but that doesn't mean I'm not sad about living so far away from my dear friends and family.
Okay, so then today: I had a pretty stressful day at work today (which is not entirely unusual), and I had to excuse myself for a few minutes because I just couldn't hold myself together. I hate that! I don't cry at work!! I've got some upheaval happening at work right now and it's adding to my stress. More on that later.
My boss asked me today if I was okay - she said she could tell something was bothering me - so I told her about a few things and then said that "The Wedding Dress Diet" wasn't helping things. She replied: "What's the Wedding Dress Diet? Starving and exercising?"
Exactly. The only diet plan known to work.

Until this last month, I don't think I had shed a tear since this time last year (my, my: how times have changed for the better!). I've been thinking a good cry would be cathartic, but this is getting out of hand.

It's Always Something

First off, let me just say: life is good. I am a happy, blessed woman. I like a good challenge and I'm definitely getting several of them right now.
Stephen left on Sunday to go back to Cali and I think I started crying about it sometime on Friday (or was it Thursday?). I'm not usually one to cry but just the thought of not being able to see him for a while about killed me. Oh well. I have got SO many things going on right now I don''t even know how I have time to miss him so much. But I do.
While I'm somewhat intimidated by the wedding planning to be done, I'm starting to have a little better perspective on it than I had this time last week so I'm not completely panicking. (Wow. That word has a "k" in it.) I will rest easier when I have a place for a reception and my dress picked out. Those are the two big items right now.
Other than that: I'm finally scheduled to speak at the Rotary Club about my trip to Thailand. They've been moving me around on the schedule for months now so they had set me up for August 30th, but then called back to change it to July 26. Yeah. Okay. Sure, I've got time to prepare a presentation. Of course, this is an obligation I committed to before I ever went on the trip, but I really wish I could have presented months ago when the trip was fresh on my mind, I wasn't planning a wedding, and I wasn't about to go insane at work...which is another story for another time.
All that, and it hit me the other day that during wedding crunch time, I have to gather all my worldly belongings and get them ready to move across the country.
Even though I'm feeling rather overwhelmed, these are all good problems to have.
When it rains, it pours.

New Wedding Blog

Since I have done so well at blogging here (ha!), I decided I needed another blog to not post on. I thought I would keep them separate for those people who want to know when to show up at the church but don't want to know what I ate for breakfast this morning. You can find the new wedding blog here.

By the way: I ate oatmeal for breakfast.