I've been living in an alternate reality lately.
For some reason, October always seems to be a tough month for me, and this year is no exception. I'm facing challenges I don't want to deal with, as well as challenges I do want to deal with hypothetically, but not really. So instead of facing the music, I've found myself doing something I haven't done since...oh, I don't know...my Babysitter's Club phase: living in fiction (and even in non-fiction). I know it's kind of a loser thing to do, but I sure have been enjoying it.
Gilead, Coronation of Glory, and now Reading Lolita in Tehran, have helped get me through some depressing times lately, which, I know, is a sorry replacement for friends and family. If you are reading this, it's likely I owe you (at least) a call or an e-mail...probably a visit (which I've realized is the expected contact from any single friend). I've had a bad attitude (and I know it), so I've been avoiding human contact, which is sad because I know human contact would make me have a better attitude. I'm a jerk. I readily acknowledge the fact. It's sad when I find myself repenting of my brattiness before I even get out of bed, but that has been the case for a couple of weeks now.
The good news is: I'm half-way through this difficult month; in less than two weeks, I'll have two stressful things over and done with; I've accomplished the goal of buying at least one Christmas present before the end of the month (and hopefully, I'll get at least one more in); I ran ten miles yesterday - a feat I never (EVER!) thought I could accomplish (even though people have tried to discourage me about it...another story for another time...proving I'm not alone in being a jerk); and life is wonderful, whether I acknowledge it or not.
I'm trying to have a better outlook. Really. I promise. Hopefully, it will take hold soon and we'll be back to our regularly scheduled programming.
For what it's worth, I think you are AWESOME for being able to run 10 miles. Is that the encouragement you were looking for? :)
In other news, you should come see us. But at the very least, give Lacey a call. Soon.
Your friendly, neighborhood, uncle josh.
Posted by: UJ at October 17, 2006 07:02 AMRunning 10 miles is something to be very proud of.
I could hardley handle what we did in boot camp.
Your commitment to running is very impressive.
Don't feel too bad. October is a the traditional grumpy month of Hilleke males. I think it has to do with the less daylight and time change. Plus, they just don't like Halloween.
Definitely call Lacey. She'll make you feel better. :)
Posted by: emily at October 18, 2006 09:24 AM