I did not get off to a good start this morning. I burned three and a half of my fingers in a breakfast-making frenzy and it's been all downhill from there. I don't know what my deal is today, but I'm not on my A game: not motivated, not productive, not thinking clearly. I'm trying to regroup but nothing's happening.
Earlier today I started thinking about how I wanted to run a 5K. I knew there was one coming up in Ruston during the Peach Festival and thought I would give it a try. Yeah, I'm crazy. Once I started actually thinking about it, I realized that people actually train for these sorts of things, they don't just wake up one morning and decide to do it. Well, it turns out the one in Ruston is next weekend and I'll be out of town anyway so I can spare myself some embarassment. This is one of those things like the triathlon I always say I want to do: I don't really want to DO it, so much as I want to HAVE DONE it. Maybe someday I'll get myself in gear and actually do it. I mean, train for it and then do it. I guess it's like most things in life: you pretty much have to work hard to achieve the goal. Darn it.
I'm stressing myself out over everylittlething right now. I try not to be a worrier, but it's gotten to me lately - many prayers answered, but not in the way I expected them to be. (I'm such a brat!) I've got Psalm 37 on my wall trying to remind myself to relax:
3Trust in the LORD and do good; Dwell in the land and cultivate faithfulness. 4Delight yourself in the LORD; And He will give you the desires of your heart. 5Commit your way to the LORD, Trust also in Him, and He will do it. 6He will bring forth your righteousness as the light And your judgment as the noonday. 7Rest in the LORD and wait patiently for Him; Do not fret because of him who prospers in his way, Because of the man who carries out wicked schemes. 8Cease from anger and forsake wrath; Do not fret; it leads only to evildoing. 9For evildoers will be cut off, But those who wait for the LORD, they will inherit the land.
Jeanette left a comment over at WonderGirl's place that I found encouraging today:
Last Sunday's sermon at our church was about "Give us this day our daily bread". The pastor linked it to the daily manna. It's a prayer we're supposed to pray daily, like gathering manna daily. It wouldn't keep the next day, reminding us to fall daily before the Lord in dependence. So I guess I'm just saying, just take it one day at a time. That's all anyone can ask.
I'm still working on that "one day at a time" thing.
Posted by christin at June 15, 2006 01:40 PM | TrackBack